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| Tuesday, August 28th, 2007 | | 12:38 pm |
God
I fucking hate life. Current Mood: hateful | | Sunday, August 19th, 2007 | | 3:10 am |
w00t
I now weigh 154 pounds. Go Anorexia! Current Mood:  cheerful | | Thursday, August 16th, 2007 | | 8:01 pm |
Selfishness
I think it's only right to tell you that I have kissed some one else and because I did, I have decided that obviously if I keep doing this to you. Then we don't need to be together. I know you'll be upset. Don't think, don't ever think that we had nothing. Because we had the good times. Please don't yell at me, I know you will be angry with me. But don't leave your faith in God, please I never want to see you leave his side. And don't forget that you will always have the church. I hate that I couldn't do this in person or even the phone. I still want to be friends this won't be the end of everything. I understand if you never want to talk to me again.
oh and in all seriousness;; your'e liz's friends still.
Good bye,
Brittany
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Wow, I get called selfish for "ruining someone's summer break from drama" when this is how my summer and birthday started. I've been cheated on 3 times by the same person and I'm called selfish? I went out of my way to do everything I possibly could have for her. And I'm getting called selfish? What kind of fucking shit is that? Fucking hell I can't stand people sometimes. She ruined her own fucking summer and she knows it. She needs to fucking admit it. She caused it all, she braught it all upon herself. She knew what would happen. She made the choice. Now she has to live with it.
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-Carpay dez Nuts-
-Fuck I can't wait to quit this job.-
-HybridFreak-
Current Mood: Fucking Pissed | | Saturday, August 11th, 2007 | | 2:42 am |
Concert
oh where to begin... the concert kicked fucking ass! it was a little off when we got there, as soon as we got there we were waiting around for the show to start and after waiting 20 minutes it started pouring rain for the next 30, then it was insanely hot when MSI went on stage. holy fucking shit they kick ass. And Lyn-Z is fucking HOT! Can you say Judy Nails from guitar hero? I swear shes the chick they based her off of. Lets see, what else. It was hilarious when the lead singer took off his jacket and started spinning it to throw it out into the crowd and then threw it behind him and flicking off the crowd all in one motion. Then after being super hot from the sun, then soaking wet from the rain, and then completely dry from the sun again, and then completely soaked again from sweat. But it was all worth it. Julien-K actually kicked ass and so did MCR. They were a lot better then I was expecting. Linkin Park was just... Sex. Thats it. The entire crowd sang word for word almost to every song they did. They mixed things up so well that even I was surprised more times then I could count. They even did a part of step up live that I've never heard. And opened with one step closer instead of closed with it. And closed with What I've Done. The emotion in Chesters voice was just unbelievable. Its definitely a concert I will never forget. -HybridFreak- Current Mood:  exhausted | | Sunday, July 29th, 2007 | | 4:13 am |
What Joyous Fun
Once again, I've been offered the chance to move to Virginia to live with my relatives up there. I've been debating it for the last few days and now after tonight with all the bullshit with Jarron, Roxy, Rob, and Christin, I'm ready to say fuck florida. Theres nothing left for me here in this state. Andys moving to melbourne, Alex is stuck in Miami, and I'm tired of the drama, people, and memories. I want a new place and a new beginning. I'll talk to mom about it more tomarrow. I've lost Brittany. I've lost my closest friends. I missed the mission trip. I'm just one big fuck up. Thats all I am and all I ever will be. Just one big fuck up. I do nothing but good and treat people with as much kindness as I can, and what do I always get in return? Bullshit. Thats it, every single fucking time, no matter what kind of relationship it is, whether it be friends or girlfriends. I'm just the worlds biggest piece of shit, who's job is to be there for everyone else to just walk all over and abuse. Please someone put me out of my misery. I can't take this anymore, I just can't. Each day is just getting worse and worse as things decay around me. Why do I even update this? Seriously? Brittany deleted me so now I have no reason to update this anymore. She was the only one who read mine and with her gone, whats the point? Hell, whats the point in me having a myspace? Everyday its just the same thing, I log in and theres nothing new. Bleh, I'm deleting them both now when I get around to it. Current Mood: depressed | | Thursday, July 26th, 2007 | | 9:48 pm |
w00t
Finally starting to see the results of me working out the past 2 weeks. Got back into my work out routine, now I just need to keep it up. Man I miss the feeling you get after a good work out. Well, time to go work out the legs. Current Mood: happy | | Wednesday, July 25th, 2007 | | 5:16 pm |
Oh My Freaking God
Okay, its not offical. Andy has redeemed himself. I now get to go to The Gathering in Illinois. W00t W00t! omfg I can not wait. Current Mood:  anxious | | Saturday, July 21st, 2007 | | 1:22 am |
I'm sorry
You win Brittany. I'm done tormenting myself by acting like this and I'm sorry for everything I did. I'm sorry I told LeAnn. I couldn't help it, I was pissed off. I just wanted time completely away from you so I could sort out my thoughts and cool down. I almost cried after you left the movie exchange. Thats why I was so pissed about you showing up there. There, now you know. I even went back out into the parking lot and grabbed your plastic screen for your iPod. I'll more then gladly give you back your things if you would readd me on myspace and livejournal, please. I won't harrass you, or bother you. I just don't want you completely gone, I never truely did. I'm sorry Brittany. Current Mood:  tired | | Friday, July 20th, 2007 | | 7:54 pm |
I wish...
I wish I could even just fall a sleep and never wake up again or just disappear. Current Mood: alone | | Wednesday, July 18th, 2007 | | 9:48 pm |
| | Saturday, July 7th, 2007 | | 11:34 pm |
Fucking Hell
God fucking damn I wanna fucking hurt something right now. Current Mood: Fucking Pissed | | Tuesday, July 3rd, 2007 | | 1:43 pm |
I bleed it out....
Fuck this hurts, I won't lie Doesn't matter how hard I try Half the words don't mean a thing And I know that I won't be satisfied So why try ignoring him Make it a dirt dance floor again Say your prayers and stomp it out When they bring that chorus in I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away Just to throw it away Just to throw it away I bleed it out I've opened up these scars I'll make you face this I pulled myself so far I'll make you, face, this, now! I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away Just to throw it away Just to throw it away I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away I bleed it out digging deeper Just to throw it away Just to throw it away Just to throw it away I bleed it out... Current Mood: Bloody | | Wednesday, June 27th, 2007 | | 6:49 am |
Birthday
Wow, I was really looking forward to my birthday a week ago and now I'm going to be spending it alone and miserable. Fun. | | Monday, October 16th, 2006 | | 2:39 am |
Life sucks and then you die. Thats all I have to say. | | Thursday, October 5th, 2006 | | 9:59 pm |
Shitty
yeah, my car broke down 2 nights ago, theres water in the oil, its overheating REALLY fast, and one of the rods is about to go, and not to mention, I'm getting sick, I've been coughing up green shit all damn day. This really fucking sucks. | | Monday, October 2nd, 2006 | | 4:01 pm |
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again You take away I feel the same All these promises You promised only pain If you take away And leave me with nothing again I feel betrayed Stuck in your ways And you rip me apart With the brutal things you say I can't deal with shit anymore I just look away Cause you can't feel my ANGER You can't feel my pain You can't feel my torment Driving me insane I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain You can't take away Make me whole again You will feel my anger You will feel my pain You will feel my torment Driving you insane I can't fight these feelings they will bring you pain You won't take away I'll be whole again | | Sunday, September 24th, 2006 | | 12:39 am |
People
Why is it that everyone stabs me in the back? Everytime I open up and trust someone I end up getting hurt. Life just keeps spiraling down this neverending shit hole. I try and be a nice guy and I'm always turned into the bad guy like I'm some sadistic serial killer or some shit. I'm finding myself getting worse and worse everyday. I don't even know why I still post on here anyways. For myself? To update other people I still care about but don't really talk to anymore? Jacob, Sierra, and Brittany? Or is it for myself? I don't even fucking know anymore. One thing I do know though is that mushrooms are fun. | | Tuesday, September 6th, 2005 | | 11:52 pm |
Advanced Global Personality Test Results | Take Free Advanced Global Personality Testpersonality tests by similarminds.comStability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive. messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, submissive, daydreamer | | Tuesday, July 12th, 2005 | | 2:47 am |
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